suicide notes & butterfly kisses

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-10-28T22:23:00

2005-10-29T02:38:17Z

well, i've been better
but i've been worse.
and i can't complain lately
but everything hurts.
but if you come wandering
around here one night
you know i'll be

listening for footsteps
and taking the fall.
counting down minutes
and trying to stall.
i'll be here waiting
for you in the dark.
one of these days
things won't seem so damn stark.

dwelling on matters
makes my matters worse.
this isn't a lifestyle
but hey man, it works.
waiting for you to come
wandering one night.
you know i'll be

listening for footsteps
and taking the fall.
counting down minutes
and trying to stall.
i'll be here waiting
for you in the dark.
one of these days
things won't seem so damn stark.

sitting in front of a glowing tv screen.
absolved in myself
and soaked up in my dreams.
i'll smoke myself to death
and surround myself with all new friends.
but i still hope one day
i'll be seeing you around here again.

par-tay.

2005-10-25T10:45:04Z

i don't have to go to school today because of the weather. haha. i want some dunkin donut's though.

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-10-20T20:45:00

2005-10-21T00:53:36Z

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are 16 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-10-19T20:37:00

2005-10-20T00:37:09Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|	16%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|	17%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

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the sane and the insane rivalry.

2005-09-14T23:37:50Z

I feel like I wanna smack somebody
Turn around and bitch slap somebody
But I ain't goin' out bro (no, no, no)
I ain't givin' into it (no, no, no)
Anxieties bash my mind in
Terrorizing my soul like Bin Laden
But I ain't fallin' down bro (no, no, no)
I won't lose control bro (no, no, no)
Shackle and chained
My soul feels stained
I can't explain got an ich on my brain
Lately my whole aim is to maintain
And regain control of my mainframe
My bloods boiling its beatin' out propaine
My train of thoughts more like a runaway train
I'm in a fast car drivin' in a fast lane
In the rain and I'm might just hydroplaine

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's
I've been dealing with something thats worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

My head keeps running away my brother
The only thing making me stay my brother
But I won't give into it bro (no, no, no)
Gotta get myself back now
God, I can't let my mind be
Tell my enemy is my own
Gots to find my inner wealth
Gots to hold up my thoughts
I can't get caught (no, no, no)
I can't give into it now (no, no, no)
Emotions are trapped set on lock
Got my brain stuck goin through the motions
Only I know what's up
I'm filled up with pain
Tryin' to gain my sanity
Everywhere I turn its a dead end infront of me
With nowhere to go gotta shake this anxiety
Got me feelin' strange paranoia took over me
And its weighin' me down
And I can't run any longer, yo
Knees to the ground

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from Uzi's
I've been dealing with something thats worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety
The sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees
Lord please please please
Take away my anxiety

don't wait for me, i'll wait for you.

2005-09-14T23:31:58Z

i spent $111 on my mom today for her to get her nails done. that's right. $111. on someone who doesn't even like me half the time.

let the rain fall, i don't care

2005-09-13T20:21:53Z

ah i'm bored. i have nothing ... nada ... to do. grrr. i should probably do some homework but, who does homework? come on.

i made my speech today in public speaking and it was HORRIBLE. very, very bad. i give up. i suck at life.

so scandalous.

2005-09-11T03:39:57Z

leila & i visited kevin at his house for 4 hours today. it probably would've been more exciting if he isn't pretty much bed ridden. and always sleepy. but it was still fun. i <3 that kid to death. he's so adorable when he's drinking apple juice from a sippy cup. he's definetely worth the 40 minute drive. and i'm so happy he didn't die from his accident. the doctors told hin that if the ambulance had come 3 minutes later he would've died. i would have died if he had died. :)

<3 karlee

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-08-04T22:44:00

2005-08-05T02:44:55Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|	10%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical Fitness	\|\|	10%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

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2005-06-01T00:44:11Z

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i've got my own car, i'm popular

2005-05-27T01:09:27Z

haha i love purple hair.

ah so yeah ... (hey that kinda rhymes) ... yeah i want kyle. i'll admit it. i want him. i have his sweatshirt right now and it smells uber good. i love boys who smell good. *big smile*

<333

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-05-24T15:33:00

2005-05-24T19:35:07Z

so i'm getting kind of sick of doing whatever with ricky. i want someone new! i found someone too, but ... i don't know ...

Three important rules for breaking up
Don't put off breaking up when you know you want to
Prolonging the situation only makes it worse
Tell him honestly, simply, kindly, but firmly
Don't make a big production
Don't make up an elaborate story
This will help you avoid a big tear jerking scene
If you wanna date other people say so
Be prepared for the boy to feel hurt and rejected
Even if you've gone together for only a short time,
And haven't been too serious,
There's still a feeling of rejection
When someone says she preferres the company of others
To your exclusive company,
But if you're honest, and direct,
And avoid making a flowery emotional speech when you brake the news,
The boy will respect you for your frankness,
And honestly he'll apeciate the kind of straight foward manner
In which you told him your decision
Unless he's a real jerk or a cry baby you will remain friends

I'm head of the class
'm popular
I'm a quarter back
I'm popular
My mom says I'm a catch
I'm popular
I'm never last picked
I got a cheerleader chick

Being attractive is the most important thing there is
If you wanna catch the biggest fish in your pond
You have to be as attractive as possible
Make sure to keep your hair spotless and clean
Wash it at least every two weeks
Once every two weeks
And if you see Jhonny football hero in the hall
Tell him he played a great game
Tell him you like his article in the newspaper

I'm the party star
I'm popular
I've got my own car
I'm popular
I'll never get caught
I'm popular
I make football bets
I'm a teachers pet.

I propose we support a one month limit on going steady
I think It will keep you both more able to deal with weird situation
And get to know more people
I think if you're ready to go out with Johnny
Now's the time to tell him about your one month limit
He wont mind he'll apreciate your fresh look on dating
And once you've dated someone else you can date him again
I'm sure he'll like it
Everyone will appreciate it
You so novel what a good idea
You can keep your time to your self
You don't need date insurance
You can go out with whoever you want to
Every boy, every boy, in the whole world could be yours
If you'll just listen to my plan
THE TEENAGE GUIDE TO POPULARITY

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-05-13T22:16:00

2005-05-14T02:20:19Z

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.

And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop. (whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucking thanks a lot.

I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs
It ruins everything. (whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everything's my fault.

And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby why the wake up call
I'm the bad boy tell the tabloids
everything's my fault.

Whoa whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa whoa everything's my fault,
everything's my fault.

I went to heaven, but couldn't get in,
For what I have done.
I said please take me, they said you're crazy
you had too much fun.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, everything's my fault.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everything's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,

Everything's my fault.

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-05-11T15:04:00

2005-05-11T19:05:15Z

no, i don't know what's up with me and ricky.

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-05-09T20:52:00

2005-05-10T00:53:17Z

the funniest thing just happened. my dad was folding laundry & all of a sudden he said, all sad like, "just my luck ... i'm missing a sock ... i'm going downstairs to try to find it."

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-04-23T12:02:00

2005-04-23T16:03:04Z

i would like to thank the ledyard cops for making my 17th birthday a memorable one.

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-04-12T22:06:00

2005-04-13T02:09:24Z

If you want to sleep I'll pull the shade
If you should vanish I'm sure to fade
If you should smolder I'll breathe in your smoke
If you should giggle
I'll smile and pretend that I made the joke

And if you should ever leave me I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say

If you should sink I don't want to swim
If you lock the door I'll beg to come in
If you should sing I won't make a sound
If you should fly I'll curse the ground

And if you should ever leave me I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say

If you're an explosion I won't search for shelter
If you're the sun I'll sit here and swelter
If you're the moon I'll stay up all night
If you're a ghost I'll be haunted for life

And if you should ever leave me I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
I will crumble

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-04-12T22:03:00

2005-04-13T02:03:44Z

make it stop

please

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-04-11T14:49:00

2005-04-11T21:50:25Z

[Verse 1]

K-Dawg is a part of the gangsta girls

With the big K-Bizzle who’s head is full of curls

Every Friday night you know where to find us gangstas

You’ll never see us hangin’ with them messed up wankstas

You’ll only find us sittin’ V.I.P., high up in the bar

Or chillin’ in the parkin’ lot in K-Dawg’s bangin’ car

We’ll just be chillin’ with our boys

And playin’ with our expensive toys

Sippin’ on our henny and smokin’ on a blunt

If you get luck you’ll see us pull a little stunt

We ride up here with all our bling, bling

That makes the pretty boys want to sing, sing

If you look at us with those eyes we’ll say “Holla at yo girl”

And if you’re lucky we’ll give you pleasure that’ll make your toes curl

For the girls who think we’re tryin’ to steal their boys

Do you really think we want all that noise?

Don be comin’ up to us

And tryin’ to cause a great big fuss

We don like them messed up girls

Who, all day long, play with their curls

They just want to steal our men

But they’ll see what happens them

We won hesitate to bust a cap in yo ass

And detonate all yo mass

We just want to ride real chic

In our bling, bling looking sleek

If you ask us, we’ll drop a beat

Bringin’ all that gangsta heat

The pavement burns as hot as fire

Boom, boom bangin’ from the amplifier

K-Dawg and K-Bizzle with their baby blues

Kickin’ it gangsta right down to their shoes

[Chorus]

Up In the hot tub, bubbly
Spot love, punish me

I don't wanna be a playa no more
I'm not a playa I just crush a lot
But K-Dawg, still got what you're lookin for
Uptown baby, uptown

[Verse 2]

If you hear us sprayin’ some new shit

Listen close cuz you know it’ll be a hit

Bumpin it in yo caddy like that’s watsup

Tellin’ them little wanksta fools to shut the f*ck up

K-Bizzle and K-Dawg are the real thing, here

What comes next all these people wanna hear

Wherever we go all them people look

Watchin’ us like they’re writin’ a book

Besides all them followas

And all them wack holleras

We got some mad friends

Who roll in they’re hot benz

And that’s mad like an amount, not an emotion

Kickin’ gangsta even when we’re at the ocean

Just like “Gangsta Girl” by Big Tymers and R.Kelly

If a gangsta smells, we like em smelly

You won’t catch us hangin’ with anyone but the hardcore

And when the night is through we still want more

Ask them gangsta boys and they’ll tell you

What happened after we drank the brew

Some boys be talkin’ crip and blood

Thinkin’ that make him a bigger stud

But we don care for none of that shit

Them boys thinking’ it makes them legit

you won't talk of dreams and i won't mention tomorrow ...

2005-03-23T23:59:24Z

i'm bored so

Name: karlee
Birthday: 4/22 (earth day)
Birthplace: norwich
Current Location: preston (what a downgrade)
Eye Color: baby blues ... that's why someone gave me the gangsta name of "baby blue eyes"
Hair Color: this week it's brownish w/ a lil blonde
Height: 5'4" :(
Right Handed or Left Handed: i'm a mighty righty ... tighty ...
Your Heritage: english, french canadian, irish, lithuanian
The Shoes You Wore Today: my not-so-bright-blue-anymore skechers
Your Weakness: boys
Your Fears: bugs
Your Perfect Pizza: veggie pizza from castle pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: mmm ...
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: that's hott or awesome
Thoughts First Waking Up: "i'd rather be sleeping"
Your Best Physical Feature: ...
Your Bedtime: whenever i feel like turning off the tv in my room
Your Most Missed Memory: *shrugs*
Pepsi or Coke: diet pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: mickey d's of course
Single or Group Dates: a lil bit of both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: definetely vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: dunkin donuts caramel swirl latte - sugar with no whip cream
Do you Smoke: pot - sometimes
Do you Swear: if i get really pissed
Do you Sing: in the car ... even when there's no music on (i provide the entertainment)
Do you Shower Daily: sometimes twice daily
Have you Been in Love: once ... a long time ago
Do you want to go to College: far, far away
Do you want to get Married: eventually
Do you belive in yourself: ...
Do you get Motion Sickness: unfortunately ... thank you dad
Do you think you are Attractive: no
Are you a Health Freak: not really
Do you get along with your Parents: my dad- yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument: the guee-tar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: not in the past month
In the past month have you Smoked: pot - no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope ... clean as an unused whistle
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope ... sick of that
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no ... i don't like the mall alot
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: oreos don't come in boxes
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no ... i like sushi though
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: not in the past month ... but i like skinny dipping too
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: actually ... that's a good story ... but to make it short: yes
Ever been called a Tease: by ricky ... but what hasn't he called me
Ever been Beaten up: nope ... i'm a gangsta ... no one messes with a gangsta
Ever Shoplifted: only small stuff
How do you want to Die: sleeping
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: own my own record label & several recording studios across the us
What country would you most like to Visit: england

In a Boy/Girl.. (Boy)
Favourite Eye Color: blue or brown
Favourite Hair Color: dark
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: taller than me but not too tall
Best Clothing Style: the skater / punk look ... but lately i'm getting into scruffy looking preps
Number of Drugs I have taken: doesn't matter ... that's the past
Number of CDs I own: alot
Number of things in my Past I Regret: a couple things

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-03-15T20:03:00

2005-03-16T01:03:57Z

yeah i still don't know. i was driving around tonight ... driving in an aimless manner to nowhere. i don't know ...

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-03-10T15:43:00

2005-03-10T20:43:42Z

*sigh* i don't know

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-03-07T15:17:00

2005-03-07T20:17:38Z

... i need to go die ...

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-03-07T15:15:00

2005-03-07T20:15:30Z

... i know i'm his andrew ...

brandxnewxbunny @ 2005-03-07T15:09:00

2005-03-07T20:09:46Z

yep ... so i AM the biggest loser ever ...

i think i'm his andrew ...